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没有人会知道

忙里偷闲，

每次心情不好
都想回来写写

是不是每对情侣
都会对对方冷淡的时候？
还是就算是情侣
两个人过的还是两个不同的生活
都容不下对方
我越想进去他的世界
反而一直被推了出来

做这个不对
做那个也不对
简单的fb tag 一下
都会被反对

有时候真觉得fb很多余
每天都有看了会吃醋的
不开心的
有时候觉得
是不是不去看看那些东西
我的心会比较踏实？

因为爱他
把所有的暧昧告一段落
因为爱他
迁就着
因为爱他
什么都可以

可我最怕
我不但赢不了他
还输了自己
心没有以前那么有安全感

可我真不想失去他
多么希望
一切都是我想多了

当你很用心的
很花心细的
去帮一个人打气
帮他加油
最后他只是'恩'

这感觉
好泄气喔
=(

我真的不懂自己该做什么了
无助的感觉
我真的不喜欢

分手两个字
说过不提的
你教我不要拿分手当气话

哪你怎么突然说要分手
还拿不想要我浪费时间来做借口

是这样的话
当初就应该分了吧

心痛
心酸
心碎

我这个决定
是对的吗

又有谁能告诉我？

assignment 

back in melbourne =(
back to uni life
back to wake up, uni and sleep


two months count down
back to malaysia =)

melbourne !
今天是第六天了

一切都很难
对
超难的
一方面不能跟他联络
一方面
超想家的

就算写这篇时
眼泪都会掉

人人都说
这是过渡期

开学了就忘记这些了

小小的房间
大大的厕所
因为是公共的嘛 ～

晚上睡觉会哭一下
起来了会发呆一下

这些
慢慢都减少了
慢慢习惯了

life move on
so don't stop

伤心不舍
都要抛后头了

就只能加油
坚强点吧
=)

I MISS MY HOME !!!
but australia is awesome =p

yes i cried
but still I know i have to move on !
I miss him =(

I met a girl
at my first day !
a girl name cynthia
who is a korean !
she is so pretty

but thanks to her
i'm not alone =)
at least !

weather is so badly cold
i'm freezing =(
and my room is so small
with a shared toilet with the floor mates !
well
I'LL SURVIVE!

can't wait for the o week
hope my life will be more interesting =)
its very boring till now =(

so yeah !
stay strong BEE LING LEE

还有两个礼拜，
我就要去澳洲了

两个礼拜
很短
也很长

远距离爱
很难
但我们都已经坚持了4年

现在距离更远了
还有时差了

我们能接受这样的挑战吗？
我们还能坚持吗？

心情复杂
觉得很兴奋
因为会又新生活

觉得伤心
因为我真的没有那个信心
能让你继续爱我了

甚至让我在想
其实你真的有那么爱我吗？
真心吗？

虽然知道
没有永远的存在
随便任何一个理由
随便一个时间
谁都可以放弃退出

你不会给我任何永远的承诺
我了解

可是
就当作是哄我
说一次
就好了
可以吗？

abu!
帮他回答埋
不可以啦～

=(

He asked one day.

"did you ever thought of me leaving you one day ? "

I didn't

I won't

I don't want to

I never want to


so that this will never come


I've put in my utmost effort to maintain our relationship

My mood gone down immediately
behaving like a roller coaster

although he said that he was asking randomly
but somehow deep down in my heart
i know he has doubts

insecure feeling
flying in front of me

Then i forced  my brother to watch a movie in my room
so that i won't be alone
and he went out to get his sister pizza

when he's back home
he called me

few minutes after
phone rang

he wrote
"Because of you , I am who I am
Thanks a lof for always with me
Iloveyou "

I laughed !
because of his english and his spelling

at that moment
he is relieved because he finally made me smile
and
I am secured
that he actually cared about me

although these are small stuff
but its a worth to remember moment
that
you are actually important to that person
you stand a place in his heart

ILOVEYOUDEAR=)

 

爱情和现实前途
并论的话，
你会选择什么呢？
很多人说，
一个成功的男人，背后会有个女人
但是也有人说
没有钱，哪来的爱情

当人生到了一点，
爱情与前途只能选一方时
其一选者了爱情，
一辈子除了爱情就没有其他依靠
其二选了前途
就得牺牲爱情

有理智的都选前途

可我贪心
想要两个
爱情也要
前途也要

虽知道
天下无完美
不是什么事情都能如愿


选择了
别后悔
只能加油
双方面都好好去经营


人生如一门生意


there's no shortcut in life 
only stepping stones will lead you to success 


李樱铃
加油=)

又回来KL 料噜～

so !
today is the first day of college =)
quite scary~
but also fun !

we had the ice breaking session !
where we have to go to a particular spot in the campus to take a pic !
its fun ~
but bad things happen
when we found out one of the spot is at a classroom
which hove no walls
and we can see thru it !
we tried to take a pic
but
we get scolded by teacher XD


too bad =(

first impression of taylor college hartamas !
IT'S FREAKING COLD ![><'']

that's it for today !
a short post =)
tmrw will be the first day of class
stay tune !
and fighting !!! ~~~
XD

yesterday was my little brother's birthday ! =)
at first
we promised him to celebrate it at pizza hut
but in the end
we went to some Chinese restaurant
nice food and cheap !
unlike pizza hut
nice price but not full !
thats wat my mum said XD

days before yesterday ~
me mum and little brother discussed about the celebration when v are having dinner
then my mum suddenly said '' so you spend us all to eat okays ? and then buy your own cake kays ? ''

my brother was like !
what kind of birthday is this ?! And i had to buy my own cake !
then he start to complain and start saying
mummy so bad !
XD

and !
i PASSED !!!
the driving test XD !
with flying colors ! ~~~
19/20 ~!
went back home with a big smiley face
and brag about it for two hours


picture time !!

On march 14 !~
i failed my driving test~~
because !
an idiot reason~
i din stop before the white line!
THE WHITE LINE !
AN IDIOT WHITE LINE
A STUPID WHITE LINE !!!
=(
its okay !
i tahan you ~
i will take it again !
FINE ~

then i go eat with my cousin
venue "De Pastry Chef Cake''


ate lots of stuff !!
and then eat lots of cake !
XD
~~~


just because i'm sad !
then he bring me there !
=)
i love him so muchyy ~~~`
XD ~~~

will add oil for the tmrw retest !
hope i can bring it back !!!~~

good luck to me ! =)

well then !
i'm back to blogging XD
the laziness disease been attacking me nowadays !
but its okay ~
i'm born to be lazy =3

march is a busy month !
a good way to start the 2011 year ~
things to be done :
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things are coming slowly
especially the results !
kinda scared that it will be the same day as my ESOL exams=(
hope its not !

but on the other hand ~
if its the same day
i dont have to get butterflies in my stomach ~

kinda stubborn

without myself noticing it !
i somehow had made my mind not in to the so called relationship
so i think my life will be full of studies
start from this month =)

So
good bye my previous life
and
a great hug to my new life !

hope everything will be fine

last !
I MISS YOU GUYS ~~